I need to have something exciting happen in my life. Everyone around me, I feel like their lives are moving forward and I'm just standing still. It is depressing and I am semi-depressed because of it. Yes I have a good job I can't stand, my own place which I want to move from, and a loving man in my life who is content the way we are.
It is never enough is it? To want more in life that is. I guess now I am ready for the next chapter, but when will it happen?
I am not getting any younger. My eggs are decreasing day by day, year by year. I am ready to be a mom. I look at him and I picture what our children will look like. Is it sad that I have names picked out? Am I crazy for wishing each month I do not get my period? Probably. Everyone around me is pregnant, showing off their sonograms and having baby showers. I sit there, jealous, wishing it was me in their shoes.
He tells me he wants to marry me, but not sure about a family. Can I be with someone like that, who doesn't want the same things I want? I love him with all my breath and I could never see him not in my life. But do I sacrifice the one thing I am definately put on this earth for?
About Me
- Michelle
- I have a past... just like anyone else. Don't judge me for the things I have done and the mistakes I have made. Because my past and my mistakes have brought me this far and has made me the person that I am today. I am perfectly content with myself. The more mistakes the more you learn... The more you're hurt the stronger you get... it's called living.
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